Here we go again.

I'm in no state, physical or emotional, to start this post decently, so I'll just get straight to the point. Or whatever.

Ever since this whole JYJ in Japan HoMin in Korea thing started, I had a really hard time comprehending everything that was happening. It's hard seeing a group of five fizzle down to two and three - especially if you know, or try to know, what it was like when there were five of them. Now that I'm only starting to fully grasp and possibly even accept the whole concept of this division (even if I've watched the situation since day 1), a new problem comes up. And it's nowhere near "easy to solve".


JYJ are halting activities in Japan. Which basically means no more recording, no more promo, and probably no more group activities. Forever, most likely. Remember, a "halt"/"hiatus" in boyband language means a split - it's been tried, tested, and done over and over and over again by countless boybands. Doesn't matter what kind you are, when your agency says halt, they mean goodbye.

Like I say everytime, I'm not some anti-Cassie just because I'm not chanting AKTF every waking hour (I do that sometimes though) - I'm just trying to look at the bigger picture, but even sometimes I go back to my fangirling ways.

The reason for the halt? The trio's KOREAN agency. Apparently, this agency they're signed to is run by guys with relations to the MOB and prison sentences to their name. Read: MOB and PRISON SENTENCES.

Who in their right minds would sign themselves off to a company like that? I know that a person's background and whatnot should never affect how others judge him, but the agency also apparently has a history of "enslaving" their acts. They left SME to escape slave contracts, but they signed right back into a new set.

HAVE THOSE THREE LOST THEIR BRAINS OR SOMETHING?!

JaeChunSu are three damn talented performers, singers, and whatever else they want to be, and I adore the hell out of them, but I'm sorry - the decision to sign with that agency was pure and utter stupidity.

For the longest time, my line has always been, "SME are stupid, they don't know how to value this and that.." but that obviously changing today. Of course SME's still a hell of a lot more stupid that JaeChunSu, but those three are pretty stupid themselves. Again, who would do such a thing? I see no logic to it.

I just failed an economics exam when I'm supposed to be the top of my class - this is not a good time for me. On top of that, I'm now confused as hell, depressed, and once again we've all been left hanging.

I never really "documented" it here, but the reason why I'm still freaking out and getting depressed left and right is because they never said goodbye. I never got a "OK, we've had enough, we're done with this chapter in our lives, it's time to move on," from them - no farewell single, no goodbye concert, no last press conference with everyone crying. I'm still here because they never said goodbye, and frankly, it hurts a hell of a lot. They're all doing their own things now, and seeing them do that without a sense of closure for them as a band is really painful.

They promised to come back to Korea in 2010, but that got scrapped. They said they'd continue in Japan, but their contract with Avex ended, they said they could never have done it without the five members, but they're split in two right now, and they told us to keep the faith - but they're falling apart.

Apologies for the crap things I said and all the emo stuff - I'm a mess right now and I have no idea what to do. *sigh*